March 9, 2018
The simple definition of flow is to move with the stream. I’m choosing to call this stream life, and I’m following flow.
It’s been less than a week. Last Friday, I met with my friend Lilly at a local taqueria for our mastermind talks. Thirty minutes into the conversation, I was saying out loud what I only ever mentioned to my husband. But only in greater detail. I was quitting, or at least, I was putting my business on hold. The sharp contrast between Lilly’s traction in her small business and my stale ya-ya sounding reasons of why I was stepping off the entrepreneurial platform was evident. Thankfully, I have a very trusting friend who accepted and supported my decision. With an open heart, I talked about my hesitation and expressed my fears but also all the reasons why I needed to do the for myself. Then I came home and the following afternoon I completely changed my website and put my photography business on hiatus, followed by a blog post What Could Be on Sunday explain my thoughts behind my actions.
Less than 2 days later something happened. The possibility of a new promotion came forward. It was oddly familiar to another promotion that was possible last year, but which I decided not to pursue because of my nerves. Aka, my ego. I was afraid that I wasn’t good enough. That I didn’t have the experience. I was afraid what accepting a new position would mean for my identity as a creative. So I ignored the calling even after multiple things (aka flow) were leading me towards it. I won’t do that again.
Now, I’m not sure whether this promotion is meant for me or not. But that’s really not what’s importaint. I’ve decided to not focus on the outcome, but just to move forward and see where it goes. What is importaint is that I’ve made a choice to take action on the next step in front of me. What I’ve decided was to not let my negative talk impede my actions. That’s what’s really important, the journey. The outcome could be that it wasn’t my time or that it’s not the right position. Maybe what I’ll gain is the experience from taking those steps, the feedback I’ll receive or the knowledge after doing some research. It could lead me in a whole different direction; I’m not really sure and I’m okay with that.
This result is not going to define me. If this position is meant to be, it will not definite me. It will simply be the next step in part of my very intricate story. I’m excited for the opportunity and that I’ve allowed myself to take action by following flow like I initially hoped for. If anything, I’m just surprised by how rapidly flow decided to find me; to show me that flow exist and that it was, like I had thought, been calling.
“Go with the Flow. Force Nothing. Let it happen…trusting that whichever way it goes. It’s for the best”
― Mandy Hale
“If it comes, let it. If it goes, let it.”
“Do not struggle. Go with the flow of things, and you will find yourself at one with the mysterious unity of the Universe”